Before taking the life changing steps of deciding to try and lose my excess weight, I felt for a very long time that the overweight person I had become was the only way I could be…this was ‘me’.
It was a state that I had grown used to and whilst I didn’t like to look at myself in the mirror, I found it easy to cover up with outsize clothes as there is plenty of choice for ‘the larger woman’ . I was busy with work and family and was able to mostly ignore what was going on in my body.
Some changes in my working life occurred which gave me more time to myself and I somehow began to be more aware of the weight I was carrying, feeling tired and lacking in energy.
Seeing myself in photos made me feel very despondent but more importantly, I began to worry about the state of my health at this stage in my life. I decided that something had to be done about it, both for my overall health and wellbeing.
I had tried in the past to reduce what I ate in order to lose weight, ate diet foods and went to various slimming clubs.
No matter how determined I was, after a couple of weeks, I always gave in and was soon back to my old ways. It was very demoralising because every time I failed, I seemed to slide further into more weight gain.